today, well, i tried to look happy in front of others, when actually i was feeling rather mellow. i kept on realizing my stupidity. how come i always fall into the same trap over and over again. will i ever learn??!!

had a new friend from campus to drove me home. well, actually there's 3 of us. me, adam and deo goin' home with gaga's car. he drove me only to the bus terminal. suddenly ervand called, and he offered me a ride home. so i eventually went home with him, and had dinner at wiwied.

[reached home] ... checking my emails, and found an email from jedi on my inbox. plain letter, a simple plain letter with no emotions in it. just simply plain. maybe i deserve to be plained. or is it played ... ? anyway, well, dont know, but i just guessing that he doesnt really get the 'feeling' that i have. i feel that everything that he said about me is half crap. there's nothing in his word that you can count on 100%. do God actually put him on my life scene to give me struggles? i wonder where this struggling class gonna prepare me for? getting rejected and dump by someone that you consider special, and that he was playing around with your feelings with no responsibility ... that was a faboulous start.

i hate him ... i started to hate jedi ... he always pulling me around, and eventually leave me half dead. i wonder if he laugh in his heart. or maybe it's his girlf who laugh at me with a victory ego.

'damn you couples!!'

i hate jedi, and i hate his girlfriend.